From this interaction and previous I will say you are of good character. I won't pretend to know the horrific stuff you likely had to deal with, I can only imagine how that cop who saved me felt.I wasn't trying to sound distasteful nor adolescent. But, I do love you man. I love everybody. The Lord has told us to love everyone. Ask any member here, I don't ever get into arguments or heated debates. I'm a firm believer in the "agree to disagree" rule, and still remain friends.
There was a member here many years ago, who thought he was the cat's ass. He knew everything about everything and everyone else was wrong. He was a fellow LEO and he and I had more than one disagreement, but we always shook hands and parted friends.
Life is way too short for arguments or racism or judgments or just plain ol ugliness towards each other. The world is a much better place if we are ALL humble and kind.
A kid in the dirt with broken glass around them and seizing, and yall see that every day sometimes I bet. It messes with you...I know it does you just from this interaction.
Like you and many others have said....we are only human, and I dont know of a way to fix that sort of problem with wiping the slate clear on every call.
I wish I did!