Also don’t forget that scripture says to not forsake the assembly of the saints. Worship is a must.Darn, i hate to hear that, but glad you are doing some reading and hearing his word. Took me years to realize, that people think of church like a theater, the audience sit in the pew, the preacher is on the stage to perform and the bulletin is the program, church is like a theater except that the people in the pews are not the audience God is in reality.. Worship is not for us, but for God and worship that comes from the heart genuine faith and love of his children delights god and it brings a smile to his face. So we have to remember when you are at church you are there to worship God and to serve and to please God, not necessarily to just be entertained.