NightVyxen will not be down for lunch.

[NightShade]

Yes it was, we were married Oct 31st 2008 so it has been 10 years.

And thanks for the food offer. Right now I don't have any place to put it and the way things are going I won't be paying the rent next month anyway.

 

[MacFromOK]

You REALLY need to contact SS to get things straightened out. Since she passed in Feb, you may not get one for her in March. There should be a small amount of death benefits though, a few hundred dollars IIRC.

Check your PMs.

 

[John6185]

Nightshade, I went through the loss of my wife a few years back and believe me, you'll never get over it but you will get better with the help of God and staying busy. I went to church and met other people which kept my mind occupied and worked hard at whatever I did. The hole is there but it's not as sore as it once was. I still fondly think of her as you certainly will of your wife for years to come. May God comfort and aid you during your time of trouble and sorrow.

 

[NightShade]

Was at the SS office today, not eligible for anything other than a one time until I turn 50. Told them to put it in a different account...

I just have to figure out how to make everything work, sadly they don't give you a couple months to get it all done. Thank you though guys, I am making it day by day. Not sleeping well and most every time I eat I am nearly sick. Last night I drank a ginger beer, not alcoholic it's just a strong ginger soda, for the first time since it happened I hate half a sandwich and didn't feel like I was going to be sick. Sucks that they are two bucks a bottle though. One of the girls who has been trying to look after me gave me some ginger candy chews that has helped some as well. I may pick up some ground ginger and put some in water with a little honey and see if it helps.

I don't want to get stuck getting drunk or taking something to sleep right now. When its really bad I take a couple benadryl but even then I try not to do it continuously.

 

[NightShade]

Thank you for everyone who was able to make it out today I really appreciate it.

 

[tRidiot]

Hang in there, my man. Let me know if there is anything I can do.

 

[NightShade]

Hang in there, my man. Let me know if there is anything I can do.

Thanks, I am hanging in there for now. Most everything there isn't much that can be done. When I tried to revive her I think I tore my AC some more in my shoulder. She was sitting up and I maneuvered her so that I could attempt CPR. Don't feel like dealing with it right now I will just deal with the pain and numbness. What I would like no one can do for me.

 

[Preacherman]

I have read this post many times and it makes me well up every time. I wish I could say that I'm sorry for your loss and those words would bring you comfort. The only thing I can do is direct you to 2 Corinthians 1:3-4. I hope that you are a believer and this brings you comfort. I lost my mom in July of 2018 and my dad passed due to stage 4 cancer of the liver March 12, 2019. I have experienced the comfort that only comes from the "God of all comfort."

 

[NightShade]

Thank you and I feel for your loss as well. Her daughter is here now and starts crying at different times especially in the house. I just hold her and tell her I know. She is taking it very hard and I can get her to laugh or crack a smile whenever I want as I always could for Shauna, every time she does smile I see her mother... It hurts but it also makes me happy in some ways.

 

[John6185]

Thanks, I am hanging in there for now. Most everything there isn't much that can be done. When I tried to revive her I think I tore my AC some more in my shoulder. She was sitting up and I maneuvered her so that I could attempt CPR. Don't feel like dealing with it right now I will just deal with the pain and numbness. What I would like no one can do for me.

Preacherman, I wish I could have said the same thing about my Mom and Dad passing, I never knew my Dad, I last seen him at age 8 and age 34 before that it was age 2 and my Mom was a hard woman who never told me she loved me or hugged me as a child. In fact she was pretty rough with me, held me over a bridge once over a railroad viaduct by my feet with all those trains below. I was just a little guy then about age 3 But I've never forgotten it and I'm 75 today. I didn't got o my Dad's funeral but did attend my Mom's but it was emotionless and I've never been to the cemetery to visit her grave. I know it's just a place she is buried but hopefully the soul is in Heaven. The cemetery is nothing but a parking place I guess.