I'm not a horse guy at all, my sister keeping them as literal pets kinda ruined them for me. But, as a guy who doesn't know what he would do when any of our dogs die, I can empathize with you man. That's rough, and I can't imagine. I've watched some really snazzy cutting horses on some real nice ranches near Weatherford TX. A horse that can work cows is a really impressive and special thing.