We all love to sit here typing away blaming God for the deaths of our loved ones due to suicide. I’ve lost two family members to suicide. My sister was living with me after her husband committed suicide. She was visiting our dad when she took a 22 rifle out of his house and ended her life at the Methodist Road exit off I 40.
Her pain and suffering became mine. I had failed her, I was the brother responsible for taking care of my sisters. Sleep evaded me and joy was a distant memory. My dad, a tough old farmer was a shell of himself. It was his 22 she had used. My entire life I had never seen him cry and now, every time I saw him he would cry.
I found myself trying to comfort my dad and writing hateful letters to my deceased sister ( this was part of my healing process) In time my dad was able to live with his grief and I was able to forgive my sister and reconcile my faith in God through his word. We blame Him for all the pain and suffering witnessed every day. Be it natural disasters, wars, or suicide. It’s Gods fault, He could have stopped it. God has given us free will to choose but that free will always chooses sin, it’s our nature. It’s not who we are, it’s what we are. We are sinners through the headship of Adam yet through the headship of Christ we are redeemed through Him unto God. Ephesians 2:1-10 says, And you were dead in the trespasses and sins [2] in which you once walked, following the course of this world, following the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that is now at work in the sons of disobedience—[3] among whom we all once lived in the passions of our flesh, carrying out the desires of the body and the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, like the rest of mankind. [4] But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, [5] even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ—by grace you have been saved—[6] and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, [7] so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. [8] For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, [9] not a result of works, so that no one may boast. [10] For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.
Her pain and suffering became mine. I had failed her, I was the brother responsible for taking care of my sisters. Sleep evaded me and joy was a distant memory. My dad, a tough old farmer was a shell of himself. It was his 22 she had used. My entire life I had never seen him cry and now, every time I saw him he would cry.
I found myself trying to comfort my dad and writing hateful letters to my deceased sister ( this was part of my healing process) In time my dad was able to live with his grief and I was able to forgive my sister and reconcile my faith in God through his word. We blame Him for all the pain and suffering witnessed every day. Be it natural disasters, wars, or suicide. It’s Gods fault, He could have stopped it. God has given us free will to choose but that free will always chooses sin, it’s our nature. It’s not who we are, it’s what we are. We are sinners through the headship of Adam yet through the headship of Christ we are redeemed through Him unto God. Ephesians 2:1-10 says, And you were dead in the trespasses and sins [2] in which you once walked, following the course of this world, following the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that is now at work in the sons of disobedience—[3] among whom we all once lived in the passions of our flesh, carrying out the desires of the body and the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, like the rest of mankind. [4] But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, [5] even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ—by grace you have been saved—[6] and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, [7] so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. [8] For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, [9] not a result of works, so that no one may boast. [10] For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.
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