Honest question

[Hawgman]

I know there are folks on here that can show true concern for others. I've even benifited from posts and PMs from such OSA brothers and sisters. I say these things so I don't come across as a jerk when I write: please don't respond "Don't do it brother!" when I ask my question.

My question: Have you ever in your life felt like just stopping all the pain by simply ending your own exsistance?

I don't mean to be unkind or rude, because if you feel compelled to contribute, please do. But I'm not aiming for tense tiraids against suicide. I'm hoping for heatfelt and honest exchange. And yes, I'm in a bad way right now. Nothing countless others have been through. Hence the thread.

 

[SPDguns]

Yes. And anyone who says no is in denial or lives in a shell. PM if you want to talk about it...

 

[1krr]

If you need just a another brother to get some things off your mind, I'm always up to give two cents worth of free advice. What I've told people in the past is that if life has got you to the point that you would end it, there is nothing lost in starting over. It's all about keeping your options open. If you end it, you can't ever decide to do something else. But if you hit the reset button and begin again, you've got a new chance to do whatever you want, be whoever you want and lead the life you want. Nothing is easy but everything is possible! Just think what you can do with a whole new set of years in front of you.

 

[TwoForFlinching]

(Redacted: Too personal)

 

[Eagle Eye]

Yes, I and I made it through by reaching out to others for help. I am sure I will feel that way again, and I would be wise to look for help then too. sending you a pm...

 

[gun001guns]

I agree with SPD to an extent that in times of great stress and/or trials & tribulations I have thought for a split second is it worth it. I say that in the same sense that I might get angry with someone and in the heat of it all say I should ..... That SOB. I say this to say we all say things we don't mean but for me personally I would never or at least to this point in my life be serious about it.

Look for what's good in your life for me it's my kids, my wife and generally my family. Just remember no matter how bad things are they can and will get better just never give up! Please feel free to PM me as well I'm a great listener and would be glad to offer any assistance I can.

Please remember things will also get better we can't give up working at it. My dad always said anything worth having is worth working for.

 

[Okie4570]

No, and I don't live in a shell, and I'm not in denial. Have always been strong in faith and surrounded by an incredible familiy............Listened and worked along with several friends through some really low points in their lives over the years. I wasn't the only one listening though for them to make it through. It took several people, from several angles and expertise. Seen, heard and experienced a lot of people in different situations doing EMS work as well. Feel free to PM.

 

[Lurker66]

Mr. Hawgman, if you've read my posts, esp in 2012/13, I hit a unbelievable patch of hell that Job himself would cry.

I lost a nut, suffered a heart attack that required CPR, lost alot of vision in one eye, endured a double hernia operation, lost my mom, lost a unborn grandchild, while was in a bad crash, fought off testicular cancer, wife had major colon surgery, paid for daughters divorce 1 year after I gave them a $150,000 home that I then had to buy him out. Then I crashed my motorcycle, broken shoulder/ribs, hip......got diagnosed as type 2 diabetic then damn near died recently due going into near death A-Fib.

I've cussed God, hated God and am still so pissed that if I ever get to Heaven ol boy bess have a good reason.

I'm still here n kickin, ain't Givin up or giving in. I've met some very good people on OSA and OKF, if you don't mind sharing your personal business this Forum can serve as a good release. And for the most part the men n women hear can help lift ya right out of this mindset.

Yes I've cried and held a gun to my head. But things ain't so bad....now.

 

[HMCS(FMF)Ret.]

Yes. I completely understand. The only thing that helped my "friend" thru this was to realize that he had people that needed him. And although he wouldn't be in insurmountable pain anymore if he died, the ones he loved would hurt, and would suffer from the decision. The decision to stay in life was a tough one for him. Even after deciding to live, he had 2 heart attacks at a young age from all the pressures of life. That's when he realized that he was responsible for making himself happy. Life is too short to take things too seriously. Live life. Experience it. Have fun. Do what you need to do to make your life good...even if it means moving and starting all over as a new person. Once my friend understood that, it gave him a new freedom. He wasn't trapped anymore...and life was good. Just an opinion.....YMMMV.

 

[Driller]

Please keep telling yourself what you are considering is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Things will get better. I bet my life on it.